I'm pissed for now, I know I got dreams I could live for now

But every motherfucker wanna test me or try to impress me and I'm sick for now

The other day i stepped outside and realized "What is this right now?"

It's cold and gloomy and my heart is roomy and I got four cents in my bank account

And I'm sick of people and I thought "all men were created equal"

So tell me why out of every other guy I'm the one that's mentally ill

Mentally still

Fightin' the urge to pop a pill when shit goes wrong

Momma tellin' me "Son, be strong" but she has no fucking clue what's going on, so I write this song

I feel no sadness so I don't cry

I feel no love, too desensitized

I feel all emotion when I go back, tryna count these racks till I stand up high

4am and I'm still wide awake, make that make sense

I could give a fuck less about your two-sense

Biggest fear is going out like a picket fence

Okay I can't make a song unless I'm faded

Sober and I'm stuck on memories

They say that this rapper life is dangerous

I don't care, it feeds my family

Okay I can't make a song unless I'm faded

Sober and I'm stuck on memories

They say that this rapper life is dangerous

I don't care, it feeds my family

I love you, dawn till dusk

Ashes to ashes, dust to dust

And I guess I'll just miss her

Even though she isn't even really gone

Things are just different ever since she cut her blue hair off

It all comes back full circle eventually, it sucks cause I thought it was meant to be

I wonder what caused you to set me free, my curiosity's gettin' the best of me

It's been a month now since you left me stranded

I guess what i wanted never want to plan, didn't it?

Wakin' up the next morn' feelin' relieved, guessin' my psych had signed against it

But what is change?

What if everything had stayed the same?

What if I never broke down?

What if I never said the shit that made you question my mental state?

But it's not too late, although I ain't tryna say somethin' I regret

Mental decline from the day you left, suicide what my brain thinks best

And it's been a while now and I finally realized how much reality sucks

It's just something about our love, still in denial now dealing with the finality of it

It's making me sick for the last few months, goin' through the withdrawals of my painkiller

Had a bone to pick, now it's back to the drugs

Shoulda given you my all but it wasn't enough

Shoulda told me you were stuck, but not everything unstable crashes

We coulda make it work but I guess you wanted something different, ashes to ashes

Lately I've been so inebriated, strugglin' to find out what to do

Everytime I stand up on that pavement, all I seem to think about is you

Lately I've been so inebriated, strugglin' to find out what to do

Everytime I stand up on that pavement, all I seem to think about is you

I love you, dawn till dusk

Ashes to ashes, dust to dust

And I guess I'll just miss her

Even though she isn't even really gone

Things are just different ever since she cut her blue hair off