I can't say what I'm trying to hide and I can't defeat this. The best part of me is dead and gone. I can't commit cause i can't define if your an enemy or friend another chance is taken

Attending support groups with others like me. Why do i feel so alone? I can't sleep at night. Another promise I'll never trust. An open hand that I can't touch. when all these memories come flooding back to me I know it's not you when you touch me. Wanna scream

Fuck you. I'm ruined for good. The simplest forms of affection are much to frightening for me to bear the emotional train wreck. Physical nightmare. That is too much for me to ask. You shouldn't have to deal with this

Don't try to understand what I've been through he's made me to weak to bring this razor to my wrist. This verdict. Exposer. It rubs the salt deeper in my wounds your guilty. No closure. This will surely be the death of me