Feel Better

I've been reading journals that I wrote when I was 13 And I'm still trying to find the answers that that kid was asking Sometimes it feels so hopeless that it's pointless to keep searching But she keeps telling me its all how I perceive it And I've been thinking lately that maybe there's nothing to it Everyone tells me to relax and not to over think it I take a break to view the lake outside my bedroom window And I must say its really beautiful while it is snowing It still feels as though I'm reading while it's being written Eraser marks, a time machine back to 2007 And if it worked in reverse and my former self could see me Would he be proud or would he just be disappointed? There's a chest that's in a closet in my parents basement Full of nostalgic shit throughout the years that I've collected I find it scary when there's nothing left for me to burry These aren't trophies. These are ghosts That's what I keep them for So why can't I feel better? Everyone knows that the past is gone forever So why cant I fell better now? I've been calling people that I knew when this was written Bringing up stories but eventually they're barely listening If I could find someone who's haunted by the same things I am Then we could talk for days until we both feel better