Everything That Isn't Me

I could have been a better brother

I could have been a better son

I'm sorry for the pain I caused you

And all the worries that I gave you, Mom

Every time there was a riot

I couldn't ever stay at home

I had to run and join the fire

You and dad said no, but I had to go

You were still the best of mothers

And now I know the fear you felt for me

You told me to stay off the streets 'cause

You didn't like me out there selling weed

I don't regret the things I've done

They made me what I am, you see

I can't apologize forever

For everything that isn't me

I could have been a better brother

I could have been a better friend

I hope you know how much I love you

And if you don't, I really understand

I used to be so bloody selfish

I tried to make it to the top, you see

The only thing I didn't get is

You've always given me the help I need

I should have been a better brother

It's easy now to see it clear

I'm sorry that I hurt you all and

I'm sorry that I caused you all so many tears

I could apologize forever

For everything I couldn't be

I can't apologize forever

For everything that isn't me

I could have been a better lover

I could have been a better man

I'm sorry that I work so much and

The fact that I never really have a plan

I'm sorry, oh, I'm so sorry

That it's so hard to say this word

And even with all the things we've been through

Sometimes I think that I will never learn

I could have been a better lover

I could have been a better man

I'm gonna be a better father

Hell, I'm doing everything I can

And I will live with this forever

With everything I couldn't be

I can't apologize forever

For everything that isn't me

I could have been a better brother

I could have been a better son

I could have been a better lover

But in the end, I'm your only one