Mindstate

I fall into the darkness and I can't get out Once again depressed, stressed and filled with doubt Aint no solid evidence Justificating the aggravating decision to choose a musicians existence Shit is intense, losing confidence Really wanna break through but I feel the fence Defensive way of acting The way I react when I feel this way Man I'ma kill today Hey, listen up normally I'm up But when the down comes around ya'll better shut up I'm incaged by my own rage My own resentment This state of mind normally stays for a day But hey, I really try to be the nicest guy But sometimes my insecuruties slice me right? Dr Jekkyl and Mr Phill I'm either an asshole or truly real This remains for anyone if they ever offended you I'm torn between ups and downs and the ups is losing duke I'm choosing to be this way Cause it's a part of me and the lyricist that I stay I pray to stay righteous and fight just not to give up And show these fools that I do give a fuck but I guess it's just my mindstate Chorus: I guess it's just my mindstate I wake up and shut the curtains to hide from the sunlight Drink a cup of coffee and I hide Cause the sun might change my perspective on things And force me to act and react, throw my ass in the ring and fight tonight I stay up late, anxious as fuck Scared that my fate is to be broke and stuck in an illusion of grandure Or get suicidal like my late grandfather I purr like a kitten, yet often feel smitten By the terrible diseaseof never feeling at ease I'm displeased by everything and anything at all times Even though I'm pleasantly positive in all rhymes Shit, just a facade Feel pleasant evertytime I hear them applaud Yet regret sinks in whenever I'm should've finished my school instead of just bringing the rhyme Yet I'm just manic like that Trading education for inspiration is just phat Fuck them suicidal tendencies, I need to stop thinking like that Chorus: I guess it's just my mindstate I guess it's just my mindstate