Optimism (As a Radical Life Choice)

The pain is back in my chest again Holding me down like a high school friend Says, "The worlds about to end You best start swimming" You said, "Anxiety is the theme of all our lives these days" Can't even have my coffee without exploiting someone Or making another millionaire or billionaire What would it take to be happy? I'll probably start with the money It's the clear backpacks It's the two new fire exits I'm buying a beer Don't want to think of where I'm running If another asshole takes a shot It's the city burning down while I stare at a dirty pic you sent me And I'm hiding in the desert, but I taste the ocean in my snot Just trying to find my footing I know you're sick of walking Don't take me out back and shoot me I know my circuits are faulty Now I've only ever been a kid Pointing out dead dogs on the road Take me down in a landslide Help me weather this high tide I'll wear you out Waiting for me to implode But don't take me out back and shoot me But I'm done dying on the inside Now that everything is dying outside The sky is letting go Of holding on like a crying child Armageddon on my mind I'll try to smile all the time Like hell's a construct that I need To make amends or keep myself clean And yes, I'm aware it's fleeting Don't take me out back and shoot me I know my circuits are faulty Now I've only ever been a kid Pointing out dead dogs on the road Take me down in a landslide Help me weather this high tide I'll wear you out Waiting for me to implode Because the ocean's gonna rise The river's finally gonna overflow And leave us stranded Try to make it to the other side But there's a crack in my lifeboat And I'm sinking Well, I'm sinking, won't you sink with me? We're sinking! Take me out back and shoot me I know my circuits are faulty I've only ever been a kid Pointing out dead dogs on the road Take me down in a landslide Weather this high tide I'll wear you out waiting for me to implode Don't take me out back and shoot me I know my circuits are faulty And now I've only ever been a kid Pointing out dead dogs on the road Take me down in a landslide Help me weather this high tide I'll wear you out Watching the world implode But don't take me out back and shoot me