BALENCIES

Goddamn, I got Balencies in the bathroom

I used to be fiendin' for 'em, dreamin' in the classroom

Turned in my exam, right then I knew it'd be the last room

For school I walked into felt my potential gettin' past due

Four years later, and my racks blue

And my whole team is seein' green like, "Yo, she acts too"

Now people take, and in your face say, "I ain't ask you"

But you been seein' how they live, so they ain't have to

And the whole world is conversatin' 'bout your waistline

And mental health days make you guilty, 'cause you waste time

I'm fightin' everybody demons but can't face mine

Baseline, use all that pain and anger and just make rhymes

How I'm upliftin' your whole life but still I hate mine?

How I get rich but still get pissed about the money?

Now everybody wantin' me to wear a fake smile

How I'm supposed to fake a laugh when ain't shit funny?

I'm running, but

Goddamn, I got Balencies in the bathroom

Droppin' all this change, it's just gon' end up in the vacuum

It was days I thought I need it

But now acceptin' all the change got me defeated

Goddamn, I'm on my second pair

One pair is out, one in the closet 'cause I left 'em there

Remind me every single night spent writin' raps ups in my closet

I ain't sleep much, but it paid off 'cause it got me here

I went to Europe, met a fan who lived in Paris

I know it hit me, 'cause I started walkin' different

For once in life, I spoke my mind, I'm not embarrassed

So many stories but my friends don't even listen

The only girl who got my heart live in Miami

I saw her smilin' in my head, I started plannin'

And listen, shit may change, but one day, yeah, I want a family

Already got a puppy, now my child the first of many

Got hella dreams, and as of late I steady see 'em

I had some idols as a kid, whoever knew I'd be one?

'09 stood in Atlanta, freezin' cold at 4 AM with my whole fam

Just to audition for a role I knew I'd be in

I didn't make it, but damn I made it

2-0-1-9 the year I waited

My mind been racin', gettin' closer, I can taste it

Got a story but I don't know how to pace it

It's lightning in a bottle, I been orderin' in cases

I'm fucking' wasted, but

Goddamn, I got Balencies in the bathroom

Starvin' for affection, someone meet me in the back room

I'm not insane, it's been a minute

But if we talkin' 'bout a game, I know I'm 'bout to win it, yeah

Goddamn, I got Balencies in the bathroom

Goddamn, I got

Goddamn, I got

Goddamn, I got Balencies in the bathroom

Goddamn, I got

Goddamn, I got

Goddamn, I got Balencies in the bathroom

Goddamn, I got

Goddamn, I got

Goddamn, I got Balencies in the bathroom