I Refuse

Hold up, here we are again Trying to get ahold of my mind again I'm in a battle for my thoughts and depressed again I don't know why this is happening Something in my mind is against the flow And I can feel a constant power struggle over my soul It's like there's two voices and I can't condone The behavior of my mind that I can't control My friends keep asking if I'm doing alright I say I'm fine That's a lie, I'm trying to survive Trying to keep my chin up and to pick up the slack I'm tired of playing a defense I wanna attack I've had enough of the doubt and enough of the lies I'm tired of always being so awake at night So I hope you understand, there's a line in the sand You wanna come back? Talk to the hand I'm done running today You can't have your way I'm done hearing all the lies you have to say This is the fight for my life So I'll face you tonight This time You're not going to prey on me I'm finally feeling alive for the very first time I'm finally winning in the war inside my mind I'm done listening to you There's nothing left you can do You try to get at me again but I refuse Wanna move but my hands are tied Why could I never see right through your lies It's like the part of you has just occupied The space in my mind where my thoughts reside Feels like an eternity Been fighting for the battle for the life of me Just trying to find the strength to find my inner peace But it's hard to keep on breathing when your sinking deep No more with living in the prison that you built to keep me hidden From the truth that you were spinning all your lies into wisdom Like a virus in my system trying to kill me while I'm trippin' So I gotta keep my distance I refuse to be a victim I've had enough of the stress so I'll rise and I'll fight I've been over this since you stole my life It's time to take it back and to find the light I'm bringing revolution and it starts tonight I'm done running today You can't have your way I'm done hearing all the lies you have to say This is the fight for my life So I'll face you tonight This time You're not going to prey on me I'm finally feeling alive for the very first time I'm finally winning in the war inside my mind I'm done listening to you There's nothing left you can do You try to get at me again but I refuse I'm done running today You can't have your way I'm done hearing all the lies you have to say This is the fight for my life So I'll face you tonight This time You're not going to prey on me I'm finally feeling alive for the very first time I'm finally winning in the war inside my mind I'm done listening to you There's nothing left you can do You try to get at me again but I refuse