Ghost of You

I'll leave again tonight to feel stable I promise I'll call you back when I'm able So many things I need to say to you In hindsight I'm happy I knew you And I wonder if you're happy tonight I went home and nothing felt right I see the ghost of you In corners a younger me knew In hindsight I'm happy that I knew you I've never been good at change Still never able to keep things the same I wish that in the moment I knew That would be the last time I saw you As you get older it gets more apparent That nothing is ever completely transparent There's more you'll never know In the things they'll never show In hindsight you're always alone If this is goodbye I've got some things to get off my mind If this is goodbye I've got some things I don't want to die with by my side When was the last time you said my name Should I feel guilty for saying yours again I know you probably curse it now But I still care somehow If it's wrong I don't care I'll keep quiet I think I'll reach out but I know I'll never try it I see the ghost of you In corners a younger me knew In hindsight I'm happy that I knew you If this is goodbye I've got some things to get off my mind If this is goodbye I've got some things I don't want to die with by my side Tonight I'm happy that I knew you I'm happy I'm happy