Thoughts (feat. Boogie)

I keep on pacing up and down the room

And I keep looking at this fucking rope

My mama text me saying, see you soon

But will I make it?

I don't know

I don't wanna die, but I also don't wanna hurt

Found a pot of gold, but still feel like I need to search, word

Success ain't everything that I assumed

'Cause I feel lonely in these crowded rooms

Can't even tell if it's plastic or real

They love me but I feel inadequate still

I mean, I try to stay focused and ignore it, but the pressure will build

Would be ashamed if I don't set up my kids

I mean I'm booming right now

But, how long is my reign gon' last?

Feel like I'm one wrong step away from becoming the same old Cass

I don't wanna go back

Wanna move forward, but I don't have all the energy

Especially when friends is busy siding with enemies

Thought you knew me better than all these made up analogies

How could I be happy when everybody is mad at me?

You could tell I'm lonely by all these memes in my gallery

Busy burning bridges when I should be burning calories

Wishing that we all came with rechargeable batteries

Wanna end it all, but gotta think of my family

Now I'm forced to smile with **** like scoop

Who don't love me like they say that they do

I could see it in the way that they move

**** do you false and say they living they truth

Oh, you're gonna miss me when I'm gone

They only love you when you're gone

Who got receipts for what a prayer do?

Yo, let me forward that, let me know that I'm unbreakable

Your synch folder, let me know how much it ate at you

Come see my plate and all that shit they made me cater to

It ain't no space for you 'cause I done been confined to it

Ain't nothing perfect like my vessel if I fine tune it

Man, I been thirsty than a bitch, been tryna find fluid

I got a waterfall to find out that it's diluted

I see the sun inside my son, so I been super shaded, but illuminated

Can't do the cell so I went super Sayan

My Neo soul could make it through the Matrix

Whoa, whoa, clear through my basement, I been fumigating

This shit got me bugging

I'm still a slave, I got a noose inside my stomach

My free shackles turn to jury for the function

My self destruction look like som', som', som'

And I fear God, but tell the Devil we could run it

Your inner beauty never paid you, truth is ugly, huh?

I'm so confused, I see the darkness when the sun is up

Yo, tell the truth, when we meet up, you just see money, huh?

It's been a minute since I fell in love

Been soul searching, I been meaning to tell

Was unavailable, they needed my help

See, I convinced the whole damn world to believe in me, bruh

When I don't even believe in myself

I'm not as honest as you think I am

I'm just as filtered as your Instagram

I mean, I'm really me, just with a bit of trickery

I don't trust a soul, I be like Mr. Bean

My spirit the reason people look up, sorta like Listerine

Scratch beneath the surface

No matter how I word it

Could never tell the truth to my fans, they think I'm perfect

I know I'm real and I know I'm fake

Don't know my fate, but I know my faith

Tryna control my pace

Believe in God and the pearly gates

So if I die, I hope my soul You take

I know that Heaven is a stretch but I'm hoping that You'll hold my place

I know I'll make it, though I made mistakes

Father protect me when I walk through shadow of the valley of death

With no fear of the darkness, though I'm hearing the threats

When I walk through the shadows of the valley of death

With no fear of the darkness, say that shit with my chest

Oh, you're gonna miss me when I'm gone

They only love you when you're gone

Ooh, you're gonna miss me when I'm gone

They only love you when you're gone