The Lies I Tell Myself

Never did I worry, never did I doubt Without even thinking I had it all figured out It always seems to happen to somebody else At the expense of society I didn't see just how they felt Behind the disguise, I still see through my eyes Ignore the obvious and embrace all the highs Moving forward, but counter-clockwise No wonder reality is such a surprise I think I have the answer swimming in my head Will I put them together before I'm fucking dead? I got a reason for everything just lying on a shelf But upon a closer look their just lies that I fucking tell myself Thinking only of me I thought that it's alright Funny how I didn't think it strange I never had a fight Spend all day smiling, but lying awake in bed It could be easier to swallow if we just spoke what went unsaid Behind the disguise, I still see through my eyes Ignore the obvious and embrace all the highs Moving forward, but counter-clockwise No wonder reality is such a surprise I think I have the answer swimming in my head Will I put them together before I'm fucking dead? I got a reason for everything just lying on a shelf But upon a closer look they're just lies that I fucking tell myself We block it all out, that was just below the belt In the grand scheme of things it doesn't really help Close our eyes, look the other way Never really listen to things that people say Their Lies THAT WE FUCKING TELL OURSELVES LIES THEIR LIES THAT WE FUCKING TELL OURSELVES