Ghost in the Routine

Yeah, I know I'm supposed

To think about the bright side 'cause it helps

But I stow everything

In a hold and locked up in a cell

Like an actor that is playing a role

Convincing everyone this is who I am

For months, I've just been faking it all

Convincing them all, making sure none can tell

It's so, oh, damn bad

(I fake smile as they walk past)

And I know not everyone gets that

(All my thoughts are a steel trap)

Honestly?

I hide myself away

Then, put on a face

Pretend that I'm okay

Do you know?

Can you see the glimpses of my hell?

How I owe?

Owe it to myself to seek out help?

Like a chameleon with its camouflage on

I'm convincing them all, blend into the place I dwell

Not letting anyone see me fall, concealing it all

Masquerading behind a veil

It's so damn bad

And I know, yeah, I know

I really should fight back

It's so, oh, damn bad

(I fake smile as they walk past)

And I know I really should fight back

(All my thoughts are a steel trap)

Honestly?

I hide myself away

Then, put on a face

To keep questions at bay

Honestly, try to be honest

When I say that I'm okay

Put on a good face for each day

Just to keep questions at bay