Refugee Freestyle

(Is that you, S.A?) Yeah It's been 'bout six long years of being kicked out I've seen my brothers putting bricks in that brick house The only fix I see was trick a man and treat myself I'm slicker than the brothers that was blood, and now they sickle cells I seen it all, it's cynical I was ahead in school That pressure was the principle If they knew half the shit I did, a cute lil' criminal I know they wondered why I'm always looking miserable You try turn water to fine wine and make it lyrical Dance was my discipline When I ain't have nobody And then this music turned to more than just a hobby God, I can't lose it now, I'm warring with my body I was in a glass house throwing stones when shit was rocky Said I got turf 'round town 'Cause little T ain't have no home, I was getting turf 'round town Now I'm confused on where I'm from, I've been all over and it's fine But different addy every time I shop online I love you for what you did for me To everyone that took me in, that love hit differently Minutes to hours, just some food and electricity And all them second mums the first to give a shit And give some tips and tricks 'bout domesticity I'm lyrically a mystery That's what's setting me apart now No pretty privilege I'm privileged to talk Privileged to walk I got first world problems And they're still two worlds apart Hanging out the top bunk, I bunk, run as fast as I can No money, food or bus pass, I had no time to plan I know I ain't lay all these lyrics, it's the story at hand And I know I ain't failed these critics, got like 40 of them I refused refugee That remedy, recipe start with therapy 'Cause now the presence of enemy be barbarity I'll quit that quick fame and money, I long longevity To match my energy I can't work a nine-to-five For the man above so I get no life And so rightly I Can't take no order from a mug And again it's these lyrics Don't feel I'm pushing these limits But it's what flows to mind, so it's only right Only time heals, innit? They'll take me for a gimmick They ain't get the picture 'less they're looking at the image Only I can push the limits, so I'll let 'em all reschedule 'Cause we do 180 pivots when I'm peaking my potential So many influencers, nothing influential It's not okay 'cause I got milk, I'm something special? I'm with the big boys with the big boy credentials It's not okay, I'm in a field dancing with devils Mummy was the devil in disguise, she got me levelling these guys I'm still a devil in her eyes and she don't care for me So I can't respect or idolize Or socialize, I'm traumatized I ostracize myself and think that I'm not there Promptly tell you what the truth is, I'm ruthless Product of my environment, I'm staying rooted I can't confide in anybody, they just use it I know who'll sell a story for the bag and then lose it Years of feeling useless Mum made me feel muted It's funny 'cause they always wonder where I get my rudeness I'm telling you the truth is Time's the biggest healer But forget the presidential, only you can be that leader