Made in Jaffna

(yeah) Woke up a giant trying to find a piece of (mind and) Mind you I kept to myself on my island (quiet) See no evil, hear no evil even (left my) Left my love to go and serve my light and Ever since a youth, was used to moving on my own The lonely cub too cutthroat Gave a fuck about your validation Ever since a youth was used to moving on my own The lonely cub too cutthroat Gave a fuck about your validation Came in '86 I was four, we was torn It was me and amma, appa and my four Older brothers, I was youngest and protected In Montreal we landed But Toronto made a home Early sunny mеmories etched on Calеdonia Road A couple factory gigs, split between the folks Kept us all afloat Hearts still full of hope By '89 suburban dreams was being bought So we packed it out to Brampton Expanded out the plot That's where I met this kid named Dex upon on the block We best friends 'til this day (shit) That's the work of god Cause who'd have known a couple decades down the road We'd be overseas and rocking shows and getting blown But first I had to navigate this adolescence 'Twas a lesson in self hatred I was placed amongst the racist Plus the hatred was contagious Oh so white washed and complacent With them White teachers White schools White Jesus White rules Went to catholic school Raised a catholic fool Taught the word of god Told to hold my tongue Never questioned who Wrote the books they used When they taught us all How the west was won It was all dispensed by puppets I was on the fence like 'fuck it' Luckily for me I found myself an Outkast CD And through Andre Benjamin I tended my imagination Luckily for me I found myself an Outkast CD And through Andre Benjamin I tended my imagination Ok now I got my confidence up I was lifted I did my history found Hieroglyphics, Souls of Mischief Through Organized Konfusion found my voice through all the Rawkus I saw my pain in DMX an exit out my conscience A couple rap groups, a couple rap groups (later) I was making, made a bit of (paper) But had to learn through, I had to learn through (failure) That I was bound to be a solo dolo star from the start Hit reset, shit was hard Hit the bottle, hid my scars Hit the bottom, ripped apart Had a daughter, had no job Debut album was a flop Plus the devil's in my ear talking raw like: "boy you thirty five and haven't popped" Need to stop, you a joke Kill yourself, leave no note Won't be missed "You a mother fuckin' bitch" Still I had to shake it off For the sake of Mimi X So I hopped back in the stu And put my foot up on their necks Wrote the greatest shit I ever penned Ascended out my purpose This the tale of king VDP Made in Jaffna They'll write it on my casket to remind them who the god was Reporting from the ashes Now behold the phoenix saga