how to live

My friends always ask me if I'd ever let go again

I never respond, 'cause I'm scared that I might sound insane

Or maybe I'm just afraid of the answer (Answer)

'Cause I don't wanna believe that I could ever (Ever)

Be in control enough so I don't lose it all

I've gained way too much, man, I can't afford to fall

As long as my past and I are still out at war

I promised myself I wouldn't let down my guard

I've been holding myself back

Damn, I forgot how to live

I've been tryna be perfect

I didn't even question it

I think I forgot how I'm supposed to live

Yeah, I think I fucked up, I just wanna live

(Yeah)

One, two, almost three years went by

Without anything easing my mind

I need some damn peace, oh my!

It's getting harder to get through the night

So I roll it up for them

And I watch them breathe it in

I don't think they understand

Just how bad I wish that I was them

I've been holding myself back

Damn, I forgot how to live

I've been tryna be perfect

I didn't even question it

I think I forgot how I'm supposed to live

Yeah, I think I fucked up, I just wanna live

I've been holding myself back

Damn, I forgot how to live

I've been tryna be perfect

I didn't even question it

I think I forgot how I'm supposed to live

Yeah, I think I fucked up, I just wanna live

I've been holding myself back

Damn, I forgot how to live

I've been tryna be perfect

I didn't even question it

I think I forgot how I'm supposed to live

Yeah, I think I fucked up, I just wanna live

I just wanna live