Maybe I Don't Know

I've been trying recently to just let things happen

In the past I had a plan and stuck to it fervently

But with every new beginning I am finding that I've been wrong

And with every wrong decision I get closer to me

Maybe I don't know what I want

Maybe I don't know what is best for me

Maybe I don't know what I want

Maybe I don't know, maybe I don't know

I was living with assumptions about how I was to love

I was flailing and was failing at finding one to hold

I've been rooting through my

Memories and searching for new meaning

And with every wrong

Decision I get closer to me

Maybe I don't know what I want

Maybe I don't know what is best for me

Maybe I don't know what I want

Maybe I don't know, maybe I don't know

I was writing sad songs to try to process what went wrong

How I couldn't seem to choose a man or keep one very long

Each tune had possibility but nothing that would stick

And with every wrong decision I get closer to me

Maybe I don't know what I want

Maybe I don't know what is best for me

Maybe I don't know what I want

Maybe I don't know, maybe I don't know

It's easy to assume that this is just a phase of life

It seems appropriate that I'm questioning at only 25

But I can't indulge the sin of certainty that was so strong

And with every wrong decision I get closer to me

Maybe I don't know what I want

Maybe I don't know what is best for me

Maybe I don't know what I want

Maybe I don't know, maybe I don't know

Maybe I don't know what I want

Maybe I don't know