hate myself

i can say things i don't always mean

when people get too close to me

don't know where it comes from, honestly

and you weren't perfect, yeah, you had your lows

but i'd say you got pretty close

don't know how you could put up with me

i was so caught up in my own thoughts

don't think that i understood

when you said that you just couldn't take it

that i would lose you for good

i didn't think this over

fell back when you got closer

after i just put you right through hell

you couldn't hate me more than i hate myself

i'd always act so selfish

had shit i hadn't dealt with

after i just put you right through hell

you couldn't hate me more than i hate myself

we both know i might be the worst at goodbyes

but i looked at you straight and i lied

and acted like i'd be fine

sometimes when i care, i think i tend to shut off

like nothing could matter enough

why would you let me keep doing that?

you should've stopped me

but i was so caught up in my own thoughts

don't think that i understood

when you said that you just couldn't take it

that i would lose you for good

i didn't think this over

fell back when you got closer

after i just put you right through hell

you couldn't hate me more than i hate myself

i'd always act so selfish

had shit i hadn't dealt with

after i just put you right through hell

you couldn't hate me more than i hate myself

so off i go to hurt you again

i'll shut you out to try and forget

that i'm the one who's fucked in the end

'cause, baby, you'll be happier with someone else

so off i go to hurt you again

i'll shut you out to try and forget

that i'm the one who's fucked in the end

'cause you couldn't hate me more than i hate myself

i didn't think this over

fell back when you got closer

after i just put you right through hell

you couldn't hate me more than i hate myself