Knight and Shining Never

I've been sad for hours hoping you'd call

But you don't use my number, no it sits in your phone

I don't know what I miss because it was never fun

And honestly, at any chance, you've chosen to run

My knight and shining never

I'm not surprised you're gone

But I'm always alone

I just see the things I can't control

When I'm home alone

And I've got no one

Trying to teach myself a smile in the mirror

Don't remember those days that were clearer

Rubber bands up my wrists and mind of regret

Who knew i could grow up and still be upset

It's night and my candle's shining

Glowing up my room long past dawn

I'm once again hiding

Everyone's life is just a fractured fairy tale

Not happy till in the clouds

With a consistent wave of doubts

I just see the things I can't control

And it certainly takes a toll

Because I look in the mirror and see a fool

I'm the king's fool

Here to make jokes about trolls

And clean up the drool

Of anyone who says so

Because I'm a fool, I'm a fool, I'm a fool

I'm a fool, I'm a fool, I'm a fool

And you treat me like I'm nothing at all

My knight and shining loser