Goin' Through It

They say the C-word's eatin' his body up He's 20 and already running out of luck They shot him up with a pile of drugs Ain't been able to concentrate in about a month In college with a full sports scholarship First in the family with that exact accomplishment Mama spent her young life caught up in a Gig to get a fitting crib to raise a child up in He told me "most people never live" Said that death is liberating if you just submit Every second is a gift our denial is deceiving They don't even believe it til the moment that they're leaving "Please Uncle Ali don't you dare cry for me You don't know nobody partly as alive as me My eyes finally opened wide enough to see The sacred vibration surrounding me It ain't the medication talking I'm not crazy I already done started walking y'all can't save me The greatest gift God ever gave me" All this pouring out of my homegirl's baby My people are going through it through it My family goin' through it though it Loved ones goin' through it though it I don't know how they do it do it My people are going through it through it My family goin' through it though it Loved ones goin' through it though it I don't see how they do it do it She got off all the drugs that she did (did) It's borderline amazing that she lived (lived) Husband and a couple healthy kids Feel guilty for the ones that never made it through them years But she said detoxing ain't the worst case It's only so long that the physical hurt stays Once you get them out your system then you're forced to revisit All the reasons that you did them in the first place They don't leave you may try to evacuate So you skate "go on 'head and hit that, you straight" If you make it back before it's too late surprise Guess who's waiting right there for you when you get back Years since her last hit of anything Every now and then still feels ashamed And still self-medicating by a different name Really hope the baby don't inherit that specific pain "I can't lie sometimes I wish I didn't exist I think of all the flyness that I would've missed I put that on the love of the kids I wouldn't trade one minute of this" My people are going through it through it My family goin' through it though it My Loved ones goin' through it though it I don't see how they do it do it My people are going through it through it My family goin' through it though it Loved ones goin' through it though it I don't see how they do it do it They had an anniversary to celebrate It's gonna take a lot more than a dinner date 40 years in the game the feeling still the same Children wave goodbye and hit the interstate How them old school couples do Bangin' all the music they first fell in love to Think of all the experience they hung through Something all them years struggling can't undo He woke up to a close call Driving through the night and he must've dozed off Swerved to the right, lost control of the car Hit a patch of ice on the road and rolled off Last thing he remembers is the car rolling Everything started happening in slow motion When he woke up the whole fam standing over him Nobody had to say it it was all on them He attended the funeral in his wheelchair He told them "I'm still here And if you remain patient through the pain When it's through doing its thing gratitude remains There's very few things sweeter when your love is your wealth I knew that woman longer than y'all have known yourself There are no mistakes in beginnings and ends So long my sweet friend until we meet again" My people are going through it through it Loved ones goin' through it though it I don't know how they do it do it My people are going through it through it My family goin' through it though it My Loved ones goin' through it though it I don't care how they do it do it