The Secret

Have you not seen how I hold on tight Did you forget that I feel your blame forevermore Did you give up now for nothing I feel so fragile, so numb inside, my heart is sore Why has the poison taken hold of me It is no secret, the noise in me will never die There is no antidote, I have no cure My light has withered, I say no more, I can not stay The door is locked, I'm sure My hands are clean My keys are on me I check again I'm always tired I never want to sleep My dreams bedevil me My breath is never deep I am my best friend I am my biggest enemy That is who I am That is nothing I can change I force myself to speak Feel insecure Too scared of people In awkward silence I feel so paralyzed But still I speak I'm disembodied I need to run away I am my best friend I am my biggest enemy That is who I am That is nothing I can change I am my best friend I am my biggest enemy That is who I am That is nothing I can change