Roulette

You may be able

But I’m still terrified

Thinking of the next move

Makes me want to run and hide

Why aren’t you nervous?

How did you prepare for this?

Was it all just a shot in the dark,

A strike of bad luck, an evil addiction?

What you searching for now?

Was I full of myself?

Now I’m falling apart 

And it’s all in my head

Stuck in the times we dread

Just cut the cord and let me figure it out

On my own without anyone else

Before I get older, and put more weight on your shoulders

While my feet drag on the ground

It feels like I’m moving against the wind

Is that all life is?

I know that our whole world is red

But I’ll bet it all on black again

Knowing I’ll never win

What you searching for now?

Was I full of myself?

Now I’m falling apart 

And it’s all in my head

Stuck in the times we dread