R.

They gather around me

At a weird time of day

My body lies lifeless

For all to see

The lights and the sounds were so distant from me

There was no sadness or anger to be felt anymore

And I had big things coming for me

Or at least that's what they say

I'm indifferent now

The future and all that they wanted for me

Died in a second, quietly died in my sleep

They took one last look through glass

Dad even took my photograph

At a funeral parlour

On a cold day in November

A stinging smell of lilies

He hid it so you'd never find it

And many years from now you'll be where I was

And you'll understand there's no sadness to be felt anymore

You can't fathom how it feels

To not feel anything

But you will eventually

And until that keep in mind she told you

I lived like I knew I didnt have time

The lights and the sounds were so distant from me

There was no sadness or anger

Cause you've been yearning your whole life

For the shards of truth to reassamble

Silent screams, wet pillow case

When you were only nine

Bottle up the tears, and hide your fears until the dead of night

Cause your purpose was to be a crutch

Holding up her shattered heart

I lived like I knew that I didnt have time