And I've got poison in my stomach, but I don't wanna flush it out

I know I'm missing something, but I just can't figure out what it is

It's been eating up my insides, cause' it all leads back to me

I can't bear it in this disguise, but I can't help it I'm too weak

What's the point of picking sides, when you know I can't be on one

And I've been waiting so much time, without the courage to move on

And I've been losing hope, my motivation's seeping out of my head

And I just can't seem to grasp it, all these stupid words you said

I can't finance this, my budget's not enough to pay the price

All these godforsaken problems resting on a social vice

And I've been contacting my friends but they're all out of good advice

Now I can't meet to make my ends, they gon' be turning off the lights (turning off the lights)

I've got about a dozen ways to grieve

But I can't waste this all on me

Cause' I've been falling out my seat

I fall apart so easily

And I've been MIA for weeks

But I can't escape this, I'm too weak

The truth is crumbling at my feet

I slouch into my bed but I can't sleep