Alone Again

I felt this was coming

I watched it grow closer

I cannot act like it doesn't exist

I don't know why

But since I've got older

There's more to life than

Shining my wrist

I'm loosing my spark

Fuck

Fuck

I'm loosing my spark

And since I've got older

I do not know

What has happened To me

Down on my luck

Mum see my potential

Down on hers too

But she send me the fee

Finding my feet

And it feels Existential

I'm giving my all

But there's no guarantee

I'm holding the line

I swear it's just me

Ahh

I'm holding the line

I swear it's just me

Am I even going in the right direction

I'm losing my mind

Don't focus on me

It took years of pain

To build out my aura

And that's why they say

That growths never free

Said your love was real

But you keept the receipts

The highest of the highs

Never last for as long as the lows

The pain I feel Seasoned these flows

When the views go up they're excited

But not when it's silent

Guess the games all fake I suppose

Heavy's the head but don't play with my heart

It's been dark from my start

From the rough grew a rose

For years I been scheming

And scheming

And scheming

And scheming

I been scheming like nobody knows

I'm fighting the world and I'm fighting within

I've been reeking of sin

Need a cleanse for my soul

They'll be happy if I quit and stop trying

If I'm lying I'm flying

As long as I just play my role

As long as i just play my role

I'm loosing my spark

And since I've got older

I do not know

What has happened To me

Down on my luck

Mum see my potential

Down on hers too

But she send me the fee

I'm finding my feet

And it feels Existential

I'm giving my all

But there's no guarantee

I'm holding the line

I swear it's just

I'm holding the line

I swear it's just

Dystopian

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