So Much Control

I forgot what I was thinking

It probably wasn't anything at all

Consumed by my own caged mind

I fade out, I fade with time

These thoughts within, they weigh with doubt

The life that's left in me cries out

Dreams once vivid, the surface now seared

The best suppressed by fear

I have so much control

Yet I can't find my way

I have so much control

But thoughts of yesterday

They weigh

Growing colder now, day by day

More possessions at stake to rape from me

The weight of it all, it starts to show

It's hard to breathe, I take it in slow

Life is changing, what's my future behold

A calloused heart, will I see myself old

Fold my hands and I start to pray

Pray I find my way

I have so much control

Yet I can't find my way

I have so much control

But thoughts of yesterday

They weigh

I have so much control

Yet I can't find my way

I have so much control

But thoughts of yesterday

They weigh

Yeah, these thoughts, they weigh