Sonder (feat. Chad "Chizzy" Webster)

I am a selfish man

Caught in this cycle again

I put pen to paper without consequence

I wonder if I'd feel the same

Caught up in this mess

If I'd have more to gain

Lost in my own head

Or would I drown in the weight of my own defense

I am shallow

Self-absorbed

I am a selfish man

I'm lost in the shadows of my pretense

I want to be in a car crash

I want to feel the airbags go off

I want to watch the windshield explode

I want to taste the blood

I want to be in a coma

I want to know you're doing just fine

I want to sleep forever

I want to watch the world pass me by

Things will get better

But it seems I've run out of time

I haven't been myself lately

I've become something I don't like

Our love was fleeting

Like two ships passing in the night

We're carried off in the current

There's no harbor in our site

The water is spreading

I'm sinking like a stone

The horizon's gone

There's no use in swimming anymore

I'll drown with my sorrows as the waves carry on

I'm not the hero of this story

But I'm the villain in mine

I've been trying to break out

Keep getting stuck at invisible lines

There are a thousand pathways to different lives

Made up words we use to justify our pride

I am a selfish man

Caught in this cycle again

I put pen to paper without consequence

I wonder if I'd feel the same

Caught up in this mess

If I'd have more to gain

Lost in my own head

Or would I drown in the weight of my own defense

I am shallow

Self-absorbed

I am a selfish man

I'm lost in the shadows of my pretense

I may be selfish

Need room to bloom

But I believe in you

This is distance

It fills my room

But I believe in you

I'm afraid

I'm all dazed

Give me space

Shifting in phase without you

Maybe I'll see you again

For better or worse

I'll see you again

I'm afraid

I'm all dazed

Give me space

Shifting in phase without you

But I believe in you

I'm afraid

I'm all dazed without you

I'm not the hero of your story

I am the villain in mine

I've been trying to break out

I keep getting stuck at invisible lines

There are a thousand pathways to different lives

Made up words we use to justify our pride

When it's all said and done

And if you have the time

I just hope to be the lit window you pass by