Treading Water

Guess I'm here yet again

And I can't tell my friends

That it's still nauseating

Guess I shouldn't be a girlfriend

Til I straighten out head

All I'll ever do is compare

Been ruminating

Thoughts won't stop

I'm meditating

How am I not

Over it, you got me so fucked up

I'm never checking

On my dash

Constantly running

From my past

But thoughts of you just bring me right back

And I'm

Falling into quicksand

One step forward I sink fast

Look back and get whiplash, just like that

I'm treading water, and not getting further

I wish that

I could move on and not think back

On what I wish that I still had

I'm so mad

I'm treading water, and you're getting further

Everytime I stand up

You pull me down like an anchor

How could you be so out of reach

Thinking about when you were with me

Whenever I think I've made some distance

I look around and nothings different

Only thing that stays consistent

Is the feeling that somethings missing

Been ruminating

Thoughts won't stop

I'm meditating

How am I not

Over it, you got me so fucked up

I'm never checking

On my dash

Constantly running

From my past

But thoughts of you just bring me right back

And I'm

Falling into quicksand

One step forward I sink fast

Look back and get whiplash, just like that

I'm treading water, and not getting further

I wish that

I could move on and not think back

On what I wish that I still had

So mad

I'm treading water, and you're getting further

Fall in to quicksand

One step forward I sink fast

Look back and get whip lash

Just like that

I'm treading water, and you're getting further

Right now I wish that

I could just not think back (and i'm wishing we could go back)

On what I wish I had (cause i'm missing what we both had)

I'm so mad

I'm treading water, and you're getting further