Nothing

As I reach out my hands to the sky It's in this moment that I've come to realize I've played my part For all of those who said it could never be done This is for you Tormented by my every undying devotion for you I have destroyed myself This time it was all or nothing I struck the match and turned away Torch the fields and pray for rain Torch the fields and pray for rain Torch the fields I have entered the eye of your storm A pause from affliction But I'll never feel so alive as I do when your world falls apart I feed on the thrill of knowing that all our hope is lost I want nothing more than to be given a chance to start again If I could find the cure I'd cleanse myself of all I know Cut the cord, bring the plague Start again, start again I'd give anything to return to the nothing from which I came Ash to ash, dust to dust Start again, start again I'd give anything to return to nothing I'd give anything to return to nothing I'd give anything, return to nothing I'd give anything, return to nothing If not forgiven, will this all be forgotten? As this guilt will outlive us both Dear God, what have I let myself become? What have I let myself become?