Nothing To Hold

I made it out of bed today Which is more than I can usually say I'm trying to escape this Place that I have found myself in You may think I'm losing my mind Or than I'm disconnected From everything that you hold true But this isn't about you I've been telling myself I'm getting ready for this I'm fine I swear It's just a bump in the road I'm getting up from this Faster than you know Please just don't tell me that I need to get a grip Because there's nothing too hold And I'm trying to let go I'm waking up to the sun But did I ever go to sleep All these thoughts that circle in my mind Make good things harder to find I feel like I'm drowning Or loosing my footing As hard as I may try I can't find the silver lining I keep telling myself That I'm ready for this I'm seeing cracks again I thought I'd fixed them all I worked so hard Just to watch it fall I'm caving in But staying strong And honestly I wasn't ready for this