Shattered Self

Why? Why did this have to be? When will I see an end? I think I'm finally losing the will to fight When fighting is all I've done Fighting to not move on Fighting to keep my head above the waves Of depression and pain I felt It's eating me up inside The end of suffering was only a lie A lie that I had to live A lie that controlled my mind My mind left me buried behind a wall Of sadness I knew I'd built I know that I won't go back I can never face this all again Blaming someone Not to face my own guilt The faults I didn't want to see Running from the past to keep this mask on I should've stopped the pain for me I've reached the end The final breakdown Fragments of a shattered self A broken dream Now I feel nothing But regret for everything