What I Recall

I buried this so deep That I forgot that it was there This fucking thing kept me stagnant And would leech of my despair Well they say that someone's eyes Are the window their soul And it makes me wonder If you look at me will you see anything, anything at all? What I recall Is nothing but a dream My youth has expired And I miss my sanity I must put this onto paper With words what I can't seem to place I write it down to paint a picture of My blackest days For ten years straight I couldn't point it out But it kept eating on the inside Can't explain, can't give a reason That it broke my heart so many times And I don't believe that it makes me weak to admit that I'm a human being So dig it up, I can't deny The sting of life that poisons me That poisons me I'm not ashamed This is what it is I'd rather tell the truth Than have you make up shit I'll carry this with me Like a brick that is tied to my feet And that will never Be cut loose And though I'm carried by a slower stream I now believe that life just has its ways And I will end up, where I need to be Where I need to be