(I Wish I Was) Perfect

I need to be spotless, shiny, flawless, beautiful, and fun in every single way

I need to be happy, charming, confident, and humble every single goddamn day

I wish I was perfect

I wish I was perfect

I wish I was perfect

Please just don’t throw me away

Can you look at me now?

I- tried- so- hard- to-

Be something that I’m proud-

Of. Can- you- please- just-

Tell me I’m not

Broken, ugly, messed up

Deep down to my soul

That I just can’t control

I’ve spent all my

Days- and- nights- so- worried

That I’d never be

Loved- and- you- saw- through- me-

You realized how pathetic I really am

That this mask made of diamonds hides a twisted broken man

Oh

I need to be spotless, shiny, flawless, beautiful, and fun in every single way

I need to be happy, charming, confident, and humble every single goddamn day

I wish I was perfect

I wish I was perfect

I wish I was perfect

Please just don’t throw me away

Sometimes I can’t breathe

And- I- feel- so- damn-

Disconnected

I- can’t- speak- I’m- just- not-

Interested

Oh is something wrong with me?

I bruised and bled and broken bones

So you would talk to me

Am I simply

Doomed- to- con- stant- ly-

Need your approval

You- get- bored- and leave-

That’s not unusual

Oh I can’t get mad at you

I’ve thrown my feelings out

So I can be of use to you

I need to be spotless, shiny, flawless, beautiful, and fun in every single way

I need to be happy, charming, confident, and humble every single goddamn day

I wish I was perfect

I wish I was perfect

I wish I was perfect

Please just don’t throw me away

I tried to be perfect.