Salvation and Saving Face

Is there anyone awake back home? Starting to feel alone again Room of people I'm the only one in it I thought I heard your voice But I didn't I know I didn't Is there anyone awake back home? Starting to feel like I know What it's like to move on Wake up finding you gone Still feels awkward And I hate it I wish I could fake it So much better than this So much better than this What if I never come back from this Forever part of my eternal darkness Show me what it's like To live on the other side To live in love and light And all those flippant drunken nights Feel like little falls from grace My hands feel stained I can't find the place Between salvation And saving face And all the bad ways I cope Show through my clothes If younger me could see now Would she be horrified or proud? I was a martyr You pulled me under All these scars I can't cover I wish I were better I wish it were over You left my hyper heart out on the water Promises get broken Hearts get stolen And sometimes you don't get them back Where's the exit Where's the medication How do I let go of My dedication What if I never come back from this Forever part of my eternal darkness Show me what it's like To live on the other side To live in love and light