Overdose (feat. Still Matthews)

Every day's harder, been trying to change But lately I really been feeling the urge Dealing with demons, been hearing 'em speaking And popping this shit just to deal with the nerves And I don't know who I am anymore Feel like the past is knocking at my door Bound by these chains, my old habits won't let go of me I'm somewhere between the man I was and who I wanna be Struggle with recovery, tryna find inner peace Tryna find a way to quit my need to feed the inner beast And my back's against the wall And I could lose it all There's a freedom that's involved Every time I fall Hopeless Why do I always feel so hopeless? I say I love it, but it's really 'cause I need it This addiction I keep feeding I can't have this feeling I know I'ma need a freedom But I'm hopeless Why do I always feel so hopeless? I fucking hate it but I feel like I can't beat it I could fly away this evening But I don't wanna overdose Now it's four in the mornin' and I'm up here feeling lonely Inside this fucking head of mine and you don't even know me I'm over you, but I ain't over you Wake me up, I've been dreaming In and out of love, I'm leaning Feeling like a fucking pea praying A relapse just might heal me I'm overdue, being over you How could you love me? How can you hate me? How come I don't give a fuck? Black can call me, blue is in me And I got one hell of a buzz High as a fuck, light that all up Substance stop fighting in us Put it on you, put it on me I'm all in, calling your bluff Hopeless Why do I always feel so hopeless? I say I love it, but it's really 'cause I need it This addiction I keep feeding I can't have this feeling I know I'ma need a freedom But I'm hopeless Why do I always feel so hopeless? I fucking hate it but I feel like I can't beat it I could fly away this evening But I don't wanna overdose