Standing Before the Fall

Watching the waves escape to find their ending Standing above in expectation Fighting the horror to acquaint with them Passionate lights I've lit from precious moments Only to dwindle to a headstone How do the moments make you more a man Life escapes before you know Tell me what I have to show My name is unknown What good are deeds when in the end you're alone I gave all I am No parades and no symphonies To see a smile was worth the while for me I healed souls that bleed I fought all my days While my comrades had fame Contribution with no credit to my name Well we all die the same Why am I crying Would it only take a taste The music from below screams it's too late I lived a million lives and still don't know me This worthless prophet tells his fables How does living make you more of a man I've seen time Have I wasted mine What's worth mean before I die? Days slipped away Would fame have been a mistake Surreal regret as I feel my conscience fading I'm too numb to keep on waiting Would fame have been a mistake Given all to others only to be broken down Anxiety grinding me Doubled over hiding The sorrow seethes consuming me Feed my self-deriding Knock me out, put me to sleep No more pull tonight End this Twisted inside by the choice We decide All our lives Why not end repetition Imagine a world With no imagining Pain is volition Seeking the void So I avoid Every fucking decision The Final Decision to take me away Take me to my grave Pain slips away When you suddenly kill your mistakes My deeds were a lie My meaning for dying, my willing to die Why breathe air when the river's below My last decision All the the lights casting shadows that grow Light creates my flight Flying, I'm falling What rush from the last of air Hear all them calling The famed and broken Beggars and heirs Freed from my ground Terminal velocity is loud Now my body and soul have found common ground Given all away Would fame have been a mistake Surreal regret as I feel my conscience fading Not much longer to be waiting This may have been a mistake Done with serving others only to be broken Smashing into the void Embrace the water's silence Making my Final Choice My peaceful sleep in violence Feeling my lungs await their final ending Questioning all my expectation my pain Fought for the horror breathing water cold All of my life I fought to keep them living Only to bite the bullet by my envy I'm trading nothing for my nothingness I made a mistake One of a million The drowning makes me shake I love and I hate them I'm doubting why I came I came here to leave them Someone knows my name But the wrong ones proclaimed it Why am I dying I've only needed peace and reason The music of life cries The water pulls me in But my life has just began I see now the depths of pain I know now someone knows my name Claw for life as I feel my conscience fading There's no time to keep on waiting Pain slips away When I breathe life once again A real regret to deny those I was saving All my life is meant for saving Resting upon the shore I clear my lungs of anger Open my eyes to more Than living as a stranger