Mask

I wear a mask with a smile for hours at a time

Stare at the ceiling while I hold back what's on my mind

And when they ask me how I'm doin' I say, "I'm just fine"

And when they ask me how I'm doin' I say, "I'm just fine"

But the fact is

I can never get off of my mattress

And all that they can ask is

"Why are you so sad, kid?"

That's what the mask is

That's what the point of the mask is

So you can see I'm trying

You won't see me crying

I'll just keep on smiling, I'm good

And it just keeps on piling

It's so terrifying

But I keep on smiling, I'm good

I've been caring too much for so long

Been comparing myself for so long

I've been wearing a smile for so long, it's real

So long, it's real

So long, it's real

Always being judged by a bunch of strange faces

Scared to go outside, haven't seen the light in ages

But I've been places

So I'm okay-ish

So I'm okay-ish

Yeah, I'm okay, bitch

But the fact is

I need help, I'm failing all my classes

They think that I need glasses

I just really wish that I could pass this

That's what the mask is

That's what the point of the mask is

So you can see I'm trying

You won't see me crying

I'll just keep on smiling, I'm good

And it just keeps on piling

It's so terrifying

But I keep on smiling, I'm good

I've been caring too much for so long

Been comparing myself for so long

I've been wearing a smile for so long, it's real

So long, it's real

So long, it's real