Community Lettuce

Don't act surprised I'm not pretending I'm an irresponsible loaf toasted both sides I can't seem to find the balance of my spending I'm a sinking ship trying to patch the water gushing through the hole But you, you turn me to stone So I run so far way But it's not far enough Completely stressed out my mind Life always grinding The dollars are spent while my backs on the scale I waste all my time hoping so blindly This is the day when my youth can be lived The day is my death Awaiting so patient I cough up my lungs as my liver turns pale I find all my peace ruining things Including my life with a sweet recipe of you You turn me to stone So I run so far away But it's not far enough I slowed down my rhyme with the passing of time What I used to be is a memory that's gone I look at my hands all tattered and damned What I want to be is a memory that's gone I've been here to long and it's more than misleading See all your teeth your smile's deceiving I don't react, I'm holding back I bite my tongue because it's not the way I've been here to long my anxiety is crazy Searching the world for the soul that you gave me I don't react, I'm holding back I bite my tongue because it's not the way I've been here to long now I'm falling asleep Making new friends with the shadows and creeps I don't react, I'm holding back I bite my tongue because it's not the way I've been here to long my anxiety is crazy Searching the world for the soul that you gave me I don't react, I'm holding back I bite my tongue because it's not the way I carry on for some luck if it's true enough While everyone tells me to shut the fuck up I won't stop just because they say so 'Holding back because it's not the way I get spit on, misspelled, and cut off Everyone says I'll never be good enough There's nothing wrong for believing in the underdog I bite my tongue because it's not the way And they wasted it time holding out on the beauty of a simple life Step out the box just a little while You're so certain it's not the way And I wasted time sleeping all day and partying all night Pissing on my money like it caught on fire I'm holding back because it's not the way