I'm A Mess

I know that pain can take me places that love has never been I know the company I keep is just a reflection of me I know instead of getting wasted, I should be getting clean 'Cause when I tried to drown my sorrows, the fuckers learned to breathe Underwater, second daughter syndrome is a real thing And I am permanently paralyzed by everything I think, I think I think myself to death, I'd like to rewire my head I'd like to be more like my sister because she can make her bed I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess I'm ashamed, I'm ashamed I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess Again, again Somebody please stop the world, I think I would like to alight It's not for me, I can't believe I've paid two decades for this ride Still, I do not believe that God exists and I've become a narcissist I had a revelation, but I don't know what it is I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess I'm ashamed, I'm ashamed I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess Again, again I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess I'm ashamed, I'm ashamed I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess Again, again I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess I'm ashamed, I'm ashamed I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess Again, again I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess Nothing makes me quite as happy as the pursuit of perfection And the quizzes on the internet all say, "You have depression" And I plan for self-improvement, but I never really change So I stop living for the weekend because every day's the same It's all the same It's all the same I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess I'm ashamed, I'm ashamed I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess, I'm a mess Again, again