Deep End

Go off the deep end I don't think you understand what i been dealing with, yeah I been trying not to go off the deep end I don't think you understand what i been dealing with, yeah, yeah Go off the deep end I don't think you understand what i been dealing with I been trying not to go off the deep end I don't think you understand what i been dealing with, yeah It's a whole damn party when the weekend comes Line up that ivory, gas hit the lungs I'm just so proud of how far that i have come But somehow i feel like that just ain't enough I just want mamma to say that she proud I just want all of this pain to be drowned I just want all of my day ones, to see that i made it And know i kept 10 to the ground I want the fame and the money it brings I want these tears to quit claiming my sleep I want my boys up in heaven to know i don't love them no less and i'm living my dreams Why does success not feel like it should Why do i hide that i'm not really good I stand on the edge with the weight of the world I swear i'm about to Go off the deep end I don't think you understand what i been dealing with I'm about to go off the deep end, yeah I don't think you understand what i been dealing with, yeah, yeah It's a whole damn vibe when I walk in Gone throw it on the tab, hit the bartend I ain't ever had to front, I ain't never had to copycat Bitch i been boss since we dove in I cover up say it's kuna matah The disguise that I be wearing is a hella facade Cuz really who do I got if i'm not okay imma man Whether or not, they say they love me, they don't understand Say I'm selfish, selfless, desperate, cocky, precious, reckless, carbon, copy The people with the most to say about me, not me But every time i hit a wave see'em dive deep I be, in my, thoughts, drowning, yaw gone, be okay with, out me I promise yaw gone be okay, so don't try to save me Don't try to save me Don't try to save me No don't try to save me Don't waste your time Tryina save me Tryina save me Don't waste your time no Don't waste your time no Don't waste your time no Tryina save me Don't save me, no don't save me Don't waste your time You don't understand no You never understand Not to go off the deep end But i'm headed there