By Myself

It's been a long time since I've felt like I wasnt by myself I can not deal with this pain Its been a long time i need help Its been a long time since I put my heart on top of the top shelf Im tired fighting all my demons need something for this pain felt Its been a long time but I need help though Depression got a grip on my life got a grip on my throat Gotta pick what I do gotta pick what I dont So Im hitting the road and I aint coming back I gotta tell it bye now Gotta change my life right now Feeling low I get high now right now why now Its been a long road but you mine now I dont see what you see in me I got issues and Im empty I know that you think you get me But I dont even get me so how could you ever get me I dont see what you see in me I got issues and Im empty I know that you think you get me But I dont even get me so how could you ever get me It's been a long time since I've felt like I wasnt by myself I can not deal with this pain Its been a long time i need help Its been a long time since I put my heart on top of the top shelf Im tired fighting all my demons need something for this pain felt And Im not feeling good now I Mask the pain Smile on my face Its a mask for pain When I make it big with the cash and fame Will it be the same will I notice change will I Huh Im still feeling strange Got a little buzz my mind it rearranged Got a little buzz but ma I will not change Got a little buzz my mind going insane But I came in vain so they hate my name And they hate Anything Im doing so I do it with a purpose Anything Im doing I do it while Im still hurting Everything Im doing I do it I do it perfect Anything Im doing now Everything I screw it up Prolly why Im feeling down Prolly why Im feeling stuck Thinking i should give it up It's been a long time since I've felt Like I wasn't by myself I can not deal with this pain Its been a long time i need help I feel alone again Dont reach out I been on my own instead Stuck in a cycle of my own repent yeah Here we go again yeah here we go again I feel alone again Dont reach out I been on my own instead Stuck in a cycle of my own repent yeah Here we go again yeah here we go again