Backbone

I'm not perfect but neither are you At least I had the decency to tell you the truth I once felt dead inside As if the world around me withered to ashes and died Now there's a piece of me that's found the peace in me No longer lost but still waiting to drown Any second the bottom could just drop out And I'll be back inside this blackhole I just climbed out Show me now what's wrong with this picture When I've used every ounce of my strength just to get better There's so much pressure that it's driving me insane So here's to waking up from this terrifying dream Cause the world around me is not as dark as it seems I'll never say I'm sorry for being selfish Cause I'm living my life for me I found my backbone lost it when I was under your control All it took was some clarity to show me I'm no longer the victim And I swear when I get the chance, I'll walk away I'll disappear like there's nothing left to lose It's kind of frightening when you're frozen in time And everything around you keeps on passing you by The world doesn't stop because we aren't living Take advantage of the gift, the short-term life we've been given There is a piece of me, a fucking place in me Where all my demons were fed with fucked up thoughts in my head Now I can see that they were never real As I begin to remember what it's like to feel So here's to waking up from this terrifying dream Cause the world around me is not as dark as it seems I'll never say I'm sorry for being selfish Cause I'm living my life for me I found my backbone lost it when I was under your control All it took was some clarity to show me I'm no longer the victim And I swear when I get the chance, I'll walk away I'll disappear like there's nothing left to lose I finally found my backbone No longer a slave to your control I'll be gone in the blink of an eye Vanish without saying so much as a goodbye Someday when you find my grave There'll be a message carved in the stone just for you "Go fuck yourself" "Go fuck yourself"