What We Had

There's a reason why I never drank a double shot martini, slightly dirty I stop breathing when I'm getting close to diagnosing what I already know I could never ask for help Thought I should just hate myself I got a feeling if I leave in the morning all of my demons are coming for me I try so hard to think I'm not my father I forget about what makes me who I am I try so hard to think I'm not a goner But I'm still here where it began What we had was a lie But I wouldn't take it back What we could have had if you tried But we couldn't make it last I've been keeping on with the music So if he's out there maybe he might hear it I've been seeing every single movie from the one with George Clooney "What are you doing?" he said back in 2010 Back of the theater his face was red But I don't ever wanna change a thing That made me stand on my own two feet I try so hard to think I'm not my father I forget about what makes me who I am I try so hard to think I'm not a goner Oh, but I'm still here where it began What we had was a lie But I wouldn't take it back What we could have had if you tried But we couldn't make it last It's okay to cry, it's okay to laugh It's okay to be happy when I'm told I'm supposed to be sad I don't miss the fights, when it got bad No, I don't miss a single thing about my old man But what we had (what we had) And I wouldn't take it back What we could have had if you tried But we couldn't make it last