Pattern

I see a pattern, a warm smile As I reach, it pulls back a mile The further I go, the less I track To never find my way back These connections are useless I have to follow again The cracks become bigger Should I remain or ascend? I see a pattern clearer I move up where it's better to hear her The voice disappears Her echo still here It's never been this clear It's safe to say what you want me to be I'm trying harder and harder to leave I am the cause I am not deceived As I wander alongside the river I realize I'm chasing clouds I am the cause I am not deceived The guilt is eternal The sickness internal Put some fucking sense into my head The hurt is only temporary I see a pattern clearer I move up where it's better to hear her The voice disappears Her echo still here It's never been this clear The further I go, the less I track I lost the pattern Never turn back