Gravestone

If you see my name on a gravestone Don't cry because I'm on my way home Let me rest in peace let me lay low Let me spread my wings and fly like an angel Life's so painful Send me my halo lord I'll be ever so grateful Because I don't want to fight anymore I don't know what's right anymore If you see my name on a gravestone Don't cry because I'm on my way home Let me rest in peace let me lay low Let me spread my wings and fly like an angel Life's so painful Send me my halo lord I'll be ever so grateful Because I don't want to fight anymore I don't know what's right anymore I know I'm insecure everyday a little more Hate my self esteem because it's probably gonna kill me If you find me in the morgue then I'm sorry that I don't it But you should of saw it coming because I'm tired of all this running I'm broken at the core Everyday a little more If you see my name in flowers then I'm sorry because I'm guilty I was buried by my flaws and paranoid thoughts I know that I'm alive but I feel like I'm a corpse Dear suicidal me I know your hard to reach I know your back inside that place that you never thought you'd be I know you overthink every little thing And you lay awake at night because suicides all you dream yeah Laying there awake and I hear my alarm It's 5am and my anxiety starts I look myself in the face I see the scars on my arms I don't want to leave my room because I feel safe in the dark so If you see my name on a gravestone Don't cry because I'm on my way home Let me rest in peace let me lay low Let me spread my wings and fly like an angel Life's so painful Send me my halo lord I'll be ever so grateful Because I don't want to fight anymore I don't know what's right anymore I'm an insecure warrior fighting body dysmorphia Suicidal now but tomorrow euphoria Fighting to be stable but feel likes there's four of us It's me against myself I can't help but self destruct I've always been an introvert Never put my feelings first I'm always coming last to the ones I'd never hurt And as I'm getting older my borderlines getting worse But I'm not scared to die because I was made from the dirt If you see my name on a gravestone Don't cry because I'm on my way home Let me rest in peace let me lay low Let me spread my wings and fly like an angel Life's so painful Send me my halo lord I'll be ever so grateful Because I don't want to fight anymore I don't know what's right anymore If you see my name on a gravestone Don't cry because I'm on my way home Let me rest in peace let me lay low Let me spread my wings and fly like an angel Life's so painful Send me my halo lord I'll be ever so grateful Because I don't want to fight anymore I don't know what's right anymore I'm sorry if this triggered you but please don't shoot And if you grabbed a noose don't you dare follow through And if your suicidal please just keep me in the loop And maybe you can save me too