Ex's House Party

I can see from the corner you're watching if I'm watching too Here again and when we're out I tell them I'm just friends now with you Talk about what's old and new and dance around what's in between Dirty walls and letting go and getting close again and what that really means I can see from the landing you've got the affection you crave Would still be standing right here with a drink she made me even if I'd stayed Slip outside to get a ride without saying goodbye Turn around to see if you'd stop me even though it'd hurt more if you tried I'm stuck in the hallway, afraid to close the door You used to be so far away but not so much anymore And I built this up around me and I can't stop looking at the floor It's hard to look you in the eye and know that this will never be more than what it is now Street lights are making lines down the empty road from the rain I'll wait inside pretend to look at the faces in your frames Kitchen lights behind my back are showing everything on the glass Your arm's around her shoulder and I'm trying to make sense on how I feel about the past I'm stuck in the hallway Afraid to close the door You used to be so far away but not so much anymore And I built this up around me and I can't stop looking at the floor It's hard to look you in the eye and know that this was never really more than what it is now