healing hurts

I expected the exhaustion And the days I couldn't get outta bed I expected the prescriptions And the pain I felt in my head I thought, slowly, I'd start feelin' better I'd stitch my life back together One day at a time In one long straight line But healin' fuckin' hurts sometimes I wish I would've known I probably would've closed my eyes Waited 'til it was all over It gets better 'til it just gets worse A full-time job isn't this much work I know that I'll survive but Healin' fuckin' hurts sometimes I expected, for a few weeks I might not feel quite like myself I expected, someone to tell me Some explanation for what I felt But now, it's been more than a year And I still don't have any Clear-cut answers And askin' just feels like slippin' backwards Yeah, healin' fuckin' hurts sometimes I wish I would've known I probably should've closed my eyes Waited 'til it was all over Yeah, it gets better 'til it just gets worse A full-time job isn't this much work I'll know that I'll survive but Healin' fuckin' hurts sometimes Oh Oh Oh No one told me it would get this lonely, I Spent six months piecin' back together Who I was, will it be forever? So jaded Done with bein' patient, I'm sick of hearin' that I'll be fine 'Cause healin' fuckin' hurts sometimes I wish I would've known And someone told me to close my eyes Wait until it was all over Yeah, it gets better 'til it just gets worse A full-time job isn't this much work I know that I survived but Healin' fuckin' hurts sometimes