Beautiful Pain

Hmmm Hmmm First time in my life I can really stand for something Cause all of my life it felt like I really had nothing Ever since I stepped foot on this earth I feel so helpless Talking to my self in the mirror Like is this worth it Ok my mum left me stranded She got kicked out of the house And it was tragic Have u ever seen the one who birth you Get beaten? That was the first time I felt pain Crying everyday like I'm insane They ask are you okay I smile back.Beautiful pain Anxiety holding me down I feel so pained I said when they ask Are you okay I just smile back beautiful pain Anxiety holding me down I feel so pained But I can't stay down Gotta help my bro and my sis off this cold ground Gotta make it up to my dad Before his time runs out We've been going back and forth I swear And it's been so so loud I try to talk to him But he's too old to hear me out I really hope one day that we get to reconcile All his problems are long like a river nile But I still love him his my ride or die Only if he knew how much tears is in my eyes When he says I bring him suffering to his heart I still hope he can get to realize That I'll stand strong for him I go down on my knees And I pray for him As long as I'm alive I'll go hard for him Even when it may not look as it seems I'll stand 10 toes even when I'm asleep I thought it was a dream When I found out u were sick Heart break could never even hurt me like this Oh lord I'm on my knees Help me now so I can breathe Beautiful pain in disguise You can see it in his eyes Angels on his left side Demons to his right side Looking for some hope up above But it's a red sky Anger in his blood So when he speaks feel fire Voices in his head His slowly rolling to the wild side Enemies wey try Go see demon with hell fire I can never cap It's all facts you can try Speak the truth I can't lie Beautiful pain in disguise Beautiful pain in disguise Beautiful pain in his eyes Ahnn Ahnn Beautiful pain disguise Beautiful pain in his eyes Beautiful pain in his eyes Beautiful pain in his eyes