I Still Don't Cry

I still don't cry enough I still be tryin' be tough I still tell lies too much to the mirror I don't look me in the eyes enough I still fear dying too much I still don't cry I still don't cry Lord knows I try I still don't cry I just wanna be better sometimes Know it sounds simple, I know Waitin' on me to change, I get fed up Make better decisions, I grow Weighed down by the shit that I know Paralyzed by the shit that I feel Propelled by the shit that I fear This ain't how to be livin', my dear Give me my beer, give me my crutch Give mе excuse, shitty, my luck Give mе my pain, need it real close Hide in broad day, I'm a real pro Whisper my truth, keep it real low Hard to heal from back on your heels Pay the cost due of every tear untold I still don't cry enough I still be tryin' be tough I still tell lies too much to the mirror I don't look me in the eyes enough I still fear dying too much I still don't cry I still don't cry (I still don't, I still don't cry) Lord knows I try I still don't cry I still don't— I don't know why I still don't cry I still don't—