Anymore

Hey man, just wanted to call and ask how you're doing You look like you've lost a lot of weight You look great, just checking in and wondering if you're alright I can never when you'll disappear Sometimes I question if I've got the guts to keep waking up So I hide so no one sees me on the ledge when I'm about to jump It's embarrassing preaching how to save when I'm perishing Perishing, perishing, perishing, ooh (oh, how) Oh, how I dream of better days and nights when I'm not so sick But somehow I guess I'm not meant to heal, I'm not meant to live 'Cause my life's like therapy, I gotta pay someone to be there for me 'Cause if I don't I'm alone, I can't do this anymore No, I can't do this anymore I fight these words like I'm at war Can someone find a cure 'cause I can't do this anymore? I can't, I can't, no, I can't do this Wait, yes I can, gotta "be a man" Gotta hide the hurt, 'cause what's worse losing me or them? No matter what I do, I lose regardless, I feel so heartless That's why I'm always wrestling with who I am And everybody's watching me, don't wanna let 'em down But I, I can't do this anymore No, I can't do this anymore No, and I'm not the one you're looking for Got one hand on the door, I can't do this anymore I can't, I can't, no, I can't do this I don't even know what I'm fighting for Healing for myself or my childhood scars? Living for a dreams how a nightmare starts 'Cause this ain't life, it's just surviving I don't even know what I'm fighting for Healing for myself or my childhood scars? Living for a dreams how a nightmare starts I can't do this anymore I can't do this anymore I'm fucking sick, I'm fucking sore Don't care if I'm adored I can't do this anymore