it hasn't killed me yet

I've been second choice all my life, I know

It's still better than being in the last row

I've been overthinking everything I know

Maybe something with me is just really wrong

I've been running home the second the bell rings

Don't ever go out or meet up with my friends

I don't talk about all of these things

But the boat I'm in, it slowly sinks

It slowly sinks

Since when does emptiness feel so heavy?

I really could've had it all

But I can't keep myself steady

So you'll stand there and watch me fall

They all say that I'm strong

'Cause it hasn't killed me yet

But what's taking me so long?

Why hasn't it killed me yet?

I've been staring at my ceiling for too long

Wondering if someone is missing me at home

I've been moving backwards, not towards my goals

Can't afford to let anyone get close

I'm so damn scared of giving up control

That sometimes I think I'll always be alone

I've been spiralling in a black hole

Don't think I'll ever find my way back home

Find my way back home

Since when does emptiness feel so heavy?

I really could've had it all

But I can't keep myself steady

So you'll stand there and watch me fall

They all say that I'm strong

'Cause it hasn't killed me yet

But what's taking me so long?

Why hasn't it killed me yet?